I honestly did not realize that many of you keep up with my Twitter. I have such a hard time following everybody that I usually just skim, so you guys have my kudos. You are much more patient people than I am.
I’ve had quite a few messages and responses asking me about my recent tweets (it is tweets and not twits, right?!) concerning my guild and what exactly happened.
I’m not going to go into extensive detail. It’s unnecessary, and it’s guild business. I will give you enough of the scenario to understand what happened, and we’ll call it a day.
The fact is, I was already aware that my dps was low. I’ve been checking into different things at EJ and Graymatter and other sources, trying some new specs (like the idea that Typhoon might be better for moving fights than speccing into Brambles, since it’s an available instant cast that won’t interefere with our DoT time), and swapping gear in and out to try to find the best fit. It’s been a frustrating few weeks on the damage meter, that’s for sure.
I switched between 2pcT8/2pcT9.25 and 2pcT9/2pcT9.25 a few times, and found no real difference. The 4pcT9 seemed to do better at the target dummy, if only slightly (I took an average of damage done for three 3-minute, no-cooldown rotations and used that to find an average dps), but in a raid scenario, it was hard to tell the difference between the two.
I double checked my enchants and my gems. I made sure my rotation was still accurate. I played around with things to minimize latency and movement. I swapped trinkets and rings, and then swapped them again, and then swapped them again.
I still haven’t quite nailed down why I’m pulling 4.5k on 25-heroic Northrend Beasts compared to most other dps being between 5 and 7k. But I’m doing everything I can to find out.
Finding out that people think you suck is pretty bad. It’s worse when they downplay the work you’ve put into trying to make it right. And that’s what it all came down to, and that, combined with some other recent developments, lead to my /gquit.
However, I was poked, prodded, talked to, and convinced, and after discussing my concerns with some of the officers, I agreed to come back.
I love my guild; I really do. And it’s good to be home.
So now, I keep going. Keep experimenting; keep learning; keep trying to improve. I’m not going to agonize over my consistent 13th spot, but I am going to do everything in my power to push past it.
I am more than a buff. I am a moonkin.